Rihanna felt empty during Chris Brown romance
Rihanna says she felt like an “empty vessel” during her relationship with Chris Brown. The Te Amo singer — who was left battered and bruised after an altercation with Brown last year — told the December issue of Britain’s Marie Claire magazine that their romance made her feel life a different person.
“I hate talking about it but it was really crazy because I felt so out of touch with myself and when that happens,” she said.
“It’s scary because nothing you say or do feels like it’s you. You just lose touch of everything that you love and everything that you would normally do; how you would dress or how you would say something… It just feels like it’s not coming from you. It’s just this one empty vase. I felt like an empty vessel.
“I’m just… I feel like… I smile for real this time.
“Eventually, I remember waking up one day and I knew I was over it. One day. I remember I was in New York at the Trump Hotel and I woke up and I just knew I was over it. ”
Rihanna then discussed her recent appearance on the Eminem single Love The Way You Lie, which critics accused of glamorizing domestic violence..
“He [Eminen] confronted himself on it,” she said. “He basically gives insight into what goes on in the mind of a couple in a domestically violent relationship. I love that in every verse it just gets to that point where she wants to leave, she wants to leave, she leaves, she leaves, she leaves… but then the hook always comes back and it’s like, ‘I love it. I love it’. That’s not what you think when it’s happening. You know you don’t like it but you’re staying, so it’s almost like you must love it because you’re not leaving.
“Every word in that song is true. It would take somebody who’s been on the inside to understand how magical those lyrics are. Everybody loves the song but the lyrics can never hit home until you’ve seen it, witnessed it, in your home or experienced it yourself.”