Fantasia Barrino: I knew exactly what I was doing. You can’t accidentally take a whole bottle of pills

Fantasia Barrino says her overdose was no accident! The American Idol star, who was hospitalized earlier this month after she took too much asrprin, admits she wanted to die. “I didn’t have any fight in me. I didn’t care about anything. I just wanted out,” Fantasia, 26, tells VH1 in a new Behind the Music interview.

The interview conveniently airs 9 p.m. ET/PT Tuesday — the same day her new album, Back to Me, is released.

“At that moment, I wanted out. I wanted it to be over with — all of it, all of that [expletive],” she added.

“I just sat in the closet and looked at the mirror and took all the pills in the bottle. I wanted to go to sleep and just be at peace. I knew exactly what I was doing. You can’t accidentally take a whole bottle of pills.

“I was tired of people doing me wrong, constantly, over and over again, dealing with my family — my father, dealing with men and their [expletive] — I was tired.

“My head was hurting me. I was over it.

“My nurse Melanie was a blessing into my life because she didn’t tell me what I wanted to hear.

“She told me what I needed to hear. And she looked at me and said, ‘You gotta get up, and you’ve gotta get out of here, ’cause you haven’t fulfilled your destiny.’

“I realized how people end up in the grave. Because that one moment [snaps her fingers] of just breaking or feeling like I can’t, I can’t go on, it’s too heavy. That was somewhere I don’t ever want to go again.”

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